This week has not been a very fun week.  There are times when I am ok and then there are times when I am on the verge of a breakdown.  I just want things to be normal and without stress and without fear.  For once in my life I am scared.  I am down right petrefied.  Right now I am doing everything that I can.  I am staying in the Word and am praying and that is what I can do right now.  I want God's will.  The sad thing is that I am not very sure what that is right now.  I think I know.  I am pretty sure of it, but then doubt creeps in. I feel like I am stuck in a sad movie and I am waiting on the good part at the end where it isn't sad anymore.  That is all that I am waiting on.  I am gonna sit here and eat my popcorn and wait.