Ask me.  That's all.  Just ask me.

I can not express how glad I am that school is back in session.  Right now it is all that matters.  School.  Finishing school, getting a job.  That is what I have got to do.  Even if at times I feel that everything is falling down around my ears and no one really understands, I have to finish this.   I guess I have got no excuse not to now.  I have no distractions.  I have no one competing for my time.  So I will finish.  I will finish strong.  It will be a good semester.  Somewhere everything will make sense and come clear, but I cant worry now.  I cannot dwell on everything.  Life is good and I am living it.  Everything is goin to be alright.

You ever felt like crap and felt like the whole world is falling apart?  That is how I have been feeling lately.  Things have changed and well, they are not what I expected them to be at this point.  I know that they will be better.  I know that one day the ache in my chest and head will be gone.  The anxiety and worries will disappear.  Right now it is a hard go, but one day everything will be alright.  A few minutes ago I got to thinking about a friend.  He is going through many things right now.  His struggles are so much greater than mine.  I really feel for the guy and I pray for him daily.  I know it may sound bad but I look at him and am thankful that I am not going through what he is.   

Moving on, or just barely moving?

So I thought that I had everything under control.  I thought that I had it all figured out, and I thought that I was ok.  Turns out that I am not.  I am not ok.  School starts on Monday and that will be a really good change.  This will finally be my last semester of school.  I know that it has taken me forever, but I would not have changed a thing.  not a single thing.  I am torn like an old sweater, but life will be ok.  Everything is going to turn out.  It wont be what I expected it to be but it will be good.

If you ask questions and get no answers should you keep asking questions or just come to the realization that you will never get answers.  I guess I will just keep the questioning to myself.

This past week was the best week of my summer up to this point.  I took a very much needed week off from work, and I went to middle Tennessee to visit some friends.  I don't know what I expected or wanted.  I just went hoping to just relax and not think quite so much.  And for the most part this is what I got.  Although I did sit and talk out some stuff that is happening in my life.  Its good to know that even though everything is falling down around your ears, people still care and love you.  That's one thing I learned this week.  I am loved.  I just hope I am half the friend that my friends are...

This last week I have been floating, just kinda adrift.  Not sure of where I am.  I have totally lost my bearings.

I am sitting here with so much on my mind.  I am confused and bothered by so much stuff right now.  Most of it has to do with the world we in which we live, in general.  I just want to yell.  I want to walk outside and scream at the top of my lungs, but I know that wont make anything better.  It wont fix anything.  I wont have a great relief from this stress and everything else that I am feeling.  I would like to punch a kitten. I want the world to be right.  I want Doc Brown to come running up to be with plutonium, a flux capacitor and a DeLoreon DMC-12...