All I want is one thing.  One thing in this entire world.  She has her dreams and wants and needs and I have mine.  She is fulfilling her's.  Mine are taking longer than anticipated and it is no one's fault but my own.  This is so much harder than anything else in my life.  I am lost and doing what I have to.  I have to do school, I have to graduate.  That is what I have got to do right now.  Maybe once that is done, everything will fall back into place. I pray that it does.  One thing... I could have absolutely nothing in life and still be utterly happy.